Natural and holistic alternatives have been a part of my life for over 30 years due to I was born with Systemic Candidiasis (an invasive yeast infection within the body). I was in my late teens when it became properly diagnosed. For many years, I was in denial with having this because I didn’t want to face the truth. I even went through a stage of rebelling and eating whatever I wanted even though I knew I shouldn’t be eating something in particular; I hid food in my bedroom, went to restaurants, and ate at friends’ homes. I went through depression at least 3 times, had a difficult marriage, suffered a miscarriage, and just didn’t have some good influences in my life. I didn’t and wasn’t making a lot of good decisions. It took many years to see what I was doing to myself and to come to where I didn’t like what I saw anymore in the mirror. I had to be the one to make changes for me not for anyone else. It took a lot longer time than it needed to for me to see what I had been doing to myself all along. I had become dependent on so many people due to my health. Others could help, but they couldn’t make me do what I needed to do to be healthy. I had to see that I had to be the CEO of my own health and the older I become, I see how important that is.
I felt as if no one understood the pain or the frustration I felt with my own life and I felt like I had no control over it even though in actuality I did. The brain fog, headaches, fatigue, migraines, and getting sick often just made everything worse. School and studying was a challenge, and I struggled to have good grades and be healthy enough to attend classes regularly. Friendships and relationships suffered due to this, and it didn’t help that I’m a shy, reserved, and introverted person.
Doctors prior to the proper diagnosis either thought I was a hypochondriac, they didn’t know what to think, or didn’t know how to help me. I know some people thought I was trying to get attention by being sick and pretending to be sick when nothing can be farther from the truth. In 1973 when I was five, my appendix ruptured and I had an emergency appendectomy done. I was in the hospital for 10 days. The penicillin saved me, but it could have easily killed me as we later found out I am allergic to penicillin. In 1981, my parents took me to an allergist and we found out I had many allergies (which is something that happens when you suffer from Candida). I remember the allergist telling me then “You will always have to be your own doctor” which has stayed with me throughout the years.
On top of my own health issues, my father passed away from cancer, non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma, after an almost ten year battle with it. My mom has battled with cancer twice. It is because of these conditions with myself and family I have learned natural, holistic, and homeopathic medicine as well as eating clean, organic food is the way to go when it comes to healing self. I keep learning to heal my gut, my brain, & my body through everything I do, think, and say.
In the last five years, I have regained so much of myself to a state of being more normal; whatever that is, right. I have lost 130 pounds by walking, going gluten free, and eating organic foods. I’m more aware of what I do by being intentional with everything. I feel better than I ever have. I still have bad days, who doesn’t. Want to know more about this journey, can read it here.
I continue to upgrade self and whatever I see fit is best in doing, I do it. For me it is to get to a weight I feel is best for me (yes, I continue to lose weight), eating the way that’s best for me, and not to succumb to what others say. People can rattle and stir you up, if you let them, so it’s important to build up your mentality where you can rise above what others do or say when it’s something negative or critical. When you learn to love yourself as is, what other people think becomes immaterial to you. Have people in your life who I call the cheerleaders. They motivate, encourage, inspire and uplift you; they truly care about you and have your best interests at heart. Make sure to have those kind of people in your life because anything else is detrimental and anything else is not love.
I share this story to help someone else. Know there’s help out there, but you do have to acknowledge and accept what is going on with you. Then you can research and seek out the best help you need.